矛盾

不懂为什么
最近总是觉得自己
越来越站不稳自己的立场了

之前和大家讨论了
也一直千交代万交代
要站稳我们一起设下的目标和立场

但是
反而是我越来越模糊
越来越矛盾
也一直质疑着
究竟我们的决定是对的吗

很多人都在问
为什么那个活动会没了
和我分享了很多
而我听了后
也开始动摇了
他们说的都没有错

其实人力
我们还是有的

我已经忘了
当初我是怎么告诉大家
不办这活动的原因了

我真的开始矛盾
开始不懂自己在想些什么了

有时候听听其他人所说的
却使自己更模糊

我该怎么办呢？

难道选择把自己封闭吗？

recently

Just realize that

I have such a long time

didn't update my blog

Too busy?

Lazy?

I don't know

For the week before school re-open

I had a whole week camp

honestly

no time for rest

that time was damn tired

luckily still had a saturday night

for me to sleep enough enough before back to USM

Once I stepped into USM gate

I know that there will be a busy life

is waiting for me

to challenge it

Well

The first week is still quite ok

quite free

I still have some time to rest

and do my own stuffs

But

start from 2nd week

every events and activities start running

I start to be busy

and of course tired

Don't know why sometimes I feel pressure

I wish I never take up the responsibility
so that i no need to bear for it

but sometimes when I calm down myself
think think think and think
I found that actually
my responsibility is much lesser than others
why do I still complain??

I always try to run away
try to ignore
try not to involve if not necessary

but is it the correct way?

I DOUBT IT!!

Just a lame post
for me to know myself more..